I write in my mind all the time. I see a phrase or hear a phrase and it triggers something so I begin writing. I am used to writing 7 blogs a week so it is not unusual for me to wake up during the night and write. When I knew God was calling me to start the Hope in Him ministry, I began writing in my mind. I told God that this is His thing so He would have to guide me and He continues to. This is a gift He has given me, this is not me!
Satan is attacking and I know this is not of you God so I ask Him to take these thoughts from me and He does! I heard a sermon about self doubt and I knew the sermon was for me. We have over 70,000 thoughts per day and not all are good thoughts. We can choose what we listen to! I had been feeling self doubt and I knew those thoughts were from Satan and they were frequent. I also know Satan is threatened by this ministry - he doesn't want people hearing about hope through Jesus so he is doing all he can to bring doubt to me!
I was praying and looked up at a verse I had on my wall at work. It had been there since I felt the calling three years ago but I hadn’t noticed it in a year. Exodus 4: 12, “Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.” Just like the sermon said, you overcome those negative thoughts by going to God’s Word! Instead of feeling self doubt I began having confidence in God. Satan better be scared because God's got this and He has the victory!
"Today I will surrender all my insecurities, self-doubts and reasons why 'I can't' to the Lord. I will put my faith in His ability and in His promise that I can do all things through Christ Who gives me strength."