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  • Writer's pictureJill Jarrell Newsome

Wrestling Thoughts

"The enemy thought he had taken EVERYTHING from Job. But Job's everything was God." I love this! I love God's timing. I got this on a day that I felt the enemy had won. I had been wrestling with my thoughts and questioning God. Sometimes at the pity party it is all about us and we forget how big our God is! Satan helps us rationalize anything!

I get so tired of those thoughts that creep in. You know the ones, they make you doubt yourself and God. You don't feel worthy, etc. And I was running out of patience! Psalm 13: 2 summed up my feelings. "How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and day after day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me?" Yes, that was my pity party. But at least at this point I was talking to God and pondering scripture.

"But" is the contrasting word that changes everything! Psalm 13: 5-6, "But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing the Lord’s praise, for he has been good to me." I began thanking God for all the ways He is working that I can't see or feel. He has not forgotten me! I am His daughter and He will never leave or forsake me. Hebrews 13: 5, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." All we have to do is surrender! Surrendering is not easy but it is worth it because God can do way more with our surrender than we can with control. God is my Everything and I will sing His praise for He has been very, very good to me!


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