Jill Jarrell Newsome
Trust and Obey
On April 25, I wrote my first blog, "Surrender" and sent these words with it. "After months of God's nudging I finally made a blog site myself! It had to be Him! Anyway, I am not sure why He has me doing this but I love it. Not sure what He is going to do with it but I am trying to be obedient...."
Three months in I am blown away. I think it is funny I said "but I love it." I had not done but one! I think that was God intervening! I wanted to share some thoughts with you.
Oswald Chambers said, "Faith never knows where it is being led, but it loves and knows the One who is leading." I still do not know where this is going but I do believe God is leading me. I believe when you cannot run away from something it is God getting your attention. I knew I had to do a blog because He never let it leave my mind!
i did not want to do this for many reasons. First of all, fear. Fear of what? I don't know. Maybe failure or thinking people will think my blogs are dumb. How can I think of things to write about five days a week? Maybe people think I shouldn't blog because I am a sinner. Actually, that was a big one and probably the dumbest one. DUH? Of course I am a sinner. I put that disclaimer out on day one! I believe Satan loved these thoughts because he does not want me blogging about Jesus!
So I had to think about being obedient. These scriptures came to mind: John 14: 15, "If you love me, keep my commands." Luke 11: 28, "He replied, 'Blessed rather are those who hear the word of God and obey it.'” So I had "heard" it and now I had to obey God. I do love Him more than anything else in my life! So if I love Him I have to obey Him.
As always, God has furnished everything that I have needed. From the technology part (and that had to be Him!) setting up the site to writing each blog! Thankfully, I dove in (or maybe God pushed me) before I really thought about having to write five days a week. How could I think of something to write about that often? You have no idea how blogging never leaves my mind. This has been the biggest blessing of all! I am so aware of God in so many situations!
That is how I am able to write every day. And not just one a day. There are lots of days that I sit and write multiple blogs. I will be doing something and see God in it and get to thinking about it and when I get home I am about to bust. I have to clear my head of all of my thoughts and I start typing. When I went on vacation for ten days I was afraid I would not be able to blog especially on travel days so I had some extra blogs to publish. But travel days I had lots to think about and the same with my vacation. I kept writing. It is truly my therapy.
I write every day but you may not see the blog I wrote that particular day. Sometimes when something is heavy on my heart I begin to write but have writers block. Until I continue praying about it and working through it I cannot finish the blog. There are some evenings that I know I will only have time the next morning to publish (hit a button) so I ask God to let me know which blog to publish. Each time this has happened I have gotten notes saying someone needed to read those words that day! That is God!
There are days that I think "this is dumb, why am I doing this?" Every time I have had one of those days I will get a text, email or even a note in the mail saying what that particular blog meant to them. I cannot thank you enough for encouraging me. I believe God nudges us to encourage each other. I always thank Him for using you to get me back on track. 1 Thessalonians 5:11, “So encourage each other and build each other up, just as you are already doing."
Obedience honors God. Through writing these blogs God has given me peace in situations and relationships, joy in serving, comfort in suffering, release of guilt and assurance of blessings. And most importantly, an awareness of Him like never before! What more could I ask for? Obedience produces faithfulness. Obedience demonstrates our love for God. John 14: 21, "Whoever has my commands and obeys them, he is the one who loves me". John 15: 10, "If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have obeyed my Father's commands and remain in his love"
Hebrews 10: 35-36, "Do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded." Obedience brings many blessings into our lives and the lives of others. Through this experience God has rewarded me with a sense of peace and joy that I cannot compare to anything else. I may not see the importance of what He has asked me to do but I will continue to obey Him. And I will continue to be blessed!
How are you being called to uncomfortable obedience today? Don't miss out on the blessings of being obedient!