Time To Get Real
Life was throwing me some hard times. In a week, my daughter would be facing a surgery that I did not want to think about. As a mom, I had lots of concerns, hurts, guilt, etc for that day. While I trusted God with the surgery I was having a tough time dealing with my emotions. We had just moved and I had not had my usual "quiet" time. One day I caught myself drinking sweet tea - an old vice! Have not had it in nine years. It wasn't even that good but I was craving that sugar. Then I noticed the packages at the front door. And they were all for me! That week I had used sugar and shopping to bring comfort. I told myself, it is time to get real! I had not been able to write in my personal blog for that whole week and I know that is my therapy and that is what I needed so that I could work through my emotions. I am not one to shop a lot or order a lot but I was looking for a fix. Obviously, the sugar and shopping were not working - I may have a few fun shoes out of this but nothing real!
I say it all the time, we are not supposed to do this life alone! I see so many angry people these days and I try to think about the last two years. 2021 has been harder than 2020! I would be angry if I had to carry all of the burdens and did not have hope. And if I don't know Who my comforter is I am not going to have hope. Sugar and shopping does not give you hope! Neither does alcohol, drugs, food, working out or whatever vice you use. I thank God that I realized within a week what I was doing and I knew what I was doing wrong.
2 Corinthians 1:3, "Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort." My God wants to comfort me. He knows my thoughts and my feelings and I bet it hurts Him when I reach for other things instead of going to Him. It would hurt me if my child did not think they could come to me! It is ok to be needy for God! I finally went to Him and sobbed, knowing I had been trying to fix things myself. Paul praises God for His comfort. He experienced this through his own tragic events. Paul knew hardship and suffering but instead of letting it break him, he ran to God. And then he told of God's faithfulness!
I am supposed to be a mother and I could not even take care of myself! I love the next verse, 2 Corinthians 1: 4, "who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God." No, I could not be the mother I needed to be without receiving God's comfort. Paul devoted his life to sharing the Gospel and encouraging others, regardless of his circumstances. We can all learn from him. God's compassion is limitless! It does not matter if our tough times are from our own doing or someone else's. God wants to wrap His arms around us and comfort us. We have the Holy Spirit inside of us to help comfort us and I am sure that is Who nudged me that day that I was not being real with myself. And not only does the Great Comforter give us enough for us but He gives us enough to comfort others! Thanks be to God!