The Ultimate Multitasker!
I was so overwhelmed when I left Sunday school Sunday that I knew I had to write. I don't know why but I continue to be amazed at what all God does! He can take one thing and use it for good for so many people and situations. And that is just what I know....who knows what all other people got from the same situation. And think about all of the ripple effects. So I decided to write about how He multitasks!
I have been struggling the past couple of weeks about something someone has asked me to do. I want to. I want to worse than anyone knows but I am scared. Now, I will do it because I know that is what God wants me to do. But not without a fight. I am going to pray about it just in case, He wants to tell me, "Jill, don't worry about stepping out of your comfort zone for me. Don't go give your testimony....who knows if there will even be someone who needs to hear it. Go have fun. Spend the day on the island!"
Another blog I will share about my fear of public speaking. God did too much Sunday for me to get into that. But I always cry, have a melt down, etc before I commit at which time the tears stop. My dad always told me the tears would stop when I quit fighting God! Seems to be the case for me.
God knows I like "signs". I like to know without a shadow of a doubt especially when it is something I do not want to do! I ask for billboards. And He provides! I have been chatting with Him daily about this situation. My latest rant is that I am not good enough. There are people who are great speakers and that would probably be the best choice. Don't you love when you forget that He really doesn't need OUR advice? My main focus has been that a more polished speaker could do better. I won't sell myself short. No one prepares more than me. I love to research and write. Just let me stay out of the limelight! And I know that He has always given me the peace I need on demand. But I want to have it six months out!
So all of this has been HEAVY on my heart. Sunday a gentleman did a quick testimony about missions. I felt he was uncomfortable and I was praying for him while he shared. He read his part and it was great. Then I went to Sunday school and we studied about the importance of sharing your testimonies which was neat because I had written about that twice last week. Then they mentioned the guy who had spoke during the service. I did not realize he was in my class! We are new so I had not met him! They shared a little about him not liking to speak in front of people.
Everyone was talking about what a good job he did and how heart felt it was. They were talking about the good that would come from it for missions. And how many parents might want to go with their kids because of it. How people might want to help fund the mission. I was thinking, Wow, God was all over that. He really can use that testimony for so many different things. Then someone said this testimony meant more to him than another one he heard a while back because he knew it was tough for this person to share. It showed how important it was for this person to be willing to share. Geez louise, could he have just stood up and said, Jill, God called and said to tell you...."
After class I went over and met this gentleman and told him what a great job he had done. I shared with him that right after Mike and I had given a marriage talk Mike said I looked like I was having a seizure I was shaking so bad. (Maybe now the people will not want me to speak!) I told him how difficult it was for me but how I understand when you KNOW you have to do it. I would not do it for anyone else!!!!!! I told him I knew how God could use that in so many ways. He told me how hard it was for him. I said it is so cool, that among all the other things that God could bring about from this talk, God used it for me! To show me that here was someone who did not like to speak in public and yet only he could do this for God. None of the other speakers would have had that impact on me. By then the tears were flowing. I think my friend realized that God had used him for so much more than he thought. I know it was not easy for my friend to share but he was obedient!
So God took care of missions. Stirring people to want to go, stirring people to want to contribute to missions, educating people on missions, etc. Then with all of that going on He remembered high maintenance Jill and knew who He had to use to speak to get her attention. At the same time, this gentleman would stretch and grow. Then He would sit them in SS together and let that be part of the lesson.....just in case she didn't get it before!
So what else did God show me Sunday? A reminder that you never know how, when, where or by whom God will speak to you. We need corporate worship to be around other Christians who are growing. And I get just as much out of Sunday school where we can encourage each other. And last but not least, God can use you and me! If God calls us to a task He will equip us for the job! Hebrews 13: 20-21, " Now may the God of peace, who through the blood of the eternal covenant brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great Shepherd of the sheep, equip you with everything good for doing his will, and may he work in us what is pleasing to him, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen"
Maybe God is speaking to you. Are you listening and looking for signs? Stay in tune!!