Jill Jarrell Newsome
Raw, Tired & Weary
There are other times that we feel raw, tired and weary. During most of those times we put on that smile and kept doing life. We are trying to get ahead at work. Trying to get things done at home. Taking care of others. I think about one of my pastors who knew I was going through a hard time and he asked how I was doing. I said fine and kept chatting. A little while later he said, "but how are you." Before we went into a meeting he said, "you have avoided my question. How are you?" Wow! I knew I couldn't talk without the floodgates opening. I said, "things are hard right now. I am not ok."
Pastor Barry reminded me that it is ok not to be ok. I think most people reading this would admit that they always say they are fine when they are really needy. I know that I have to cry out to God but sometimes I have to be reminded. I guess I put it off because, let's face it, it is hard to reach down, deep, and pull all of that tough stuff out and deal with it. I went home that day and got on my knees and cried out! What a release a good cry can be. I told God I know He is with me and I know I will grow through this and be stronger in Him. Since He knows anyway, I told Him I am tired, weary and burdened. When I hit my knees and surrendered the floodgates opened and I began to feel lighter and have peace!
Tired and weary? Matthew 11: 28, "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." God helped me change my focus to what I know, based on His faithfulness in my life. God is good, all the time! He has never failed me yet! He loves my family even more than As the song says, "All my life you have been faithful! All my life you have been so, so good! With every breath that I am able, I will sing of the goodness of God!" Amen!
"You don't know how much blessing is wrapped up in your battle!"