Jill Jarrell Newsome
Overwhelmed Or Overflowing
We knew when we were selling the house that Mike was going to have surgery but we really wanted to sell while the market was hot. We did not know it would sell prior to going on the market. My vacation with Mom was already planned months out so I knew I would be gone that week. I would just work extra hard wen I got home. Of course, we were not expecting Mom's surgery or other life issues. The day we closed on our house was the day Mom had surgery. That same day, I would learn just how high risk Mike was for his surgery due to blood clots. I was beginning to feel very overwhelmed.
I was feeling overwhelmed because I guess I thought I was in control! But I was not in control! Proverbs 16: 9, "In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps. "According to Google, the definition of overwhelmed is, "bury or drown beneath a huge mass" or "defeat completely". I do not like that definition - it wasn't that bad. One day I saw this post on Facebook that said, "Pessimist: glass half empty. Optimist: Glass half full. Psalmist: "my cup runneth over..." Psalm 23: 5" I like to think I am an optimist. I thought back to "defeat completely". I was not overwhelmed! I was an overflowing person! I began to stop and look at each scenario and how God had already worked it out. Hadn't I already known His hand was all over it? He obviously sold our house and put icing on it! I realized while there was not a good time for mom to break her wrist it was a good time for us to be together 24/7 for a week to take care of her and divert her attention. He brought the best surgeon to Mom, again, through a family friend. As my uncle's caregiver, I have had extremely hard and heart breaking issues to deal with but God gives me the time to be able to go and take Mom. Mike was going to finally be out of pain and had waited 14 months for this surgery. And he had the best surgeon, another friend of the family! God gives me rest each night to go through the next day. I am so tired at night that I go right to sleep. Most importantly, God is making me lean on Him because I cannot handle it.
What better news is there than we can hand our burdens over? Philippians 4: 6, "Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." 1 Peter 5: 7, "Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." Matthew 6: 27, "Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?" If I am not supposed to worry, what do I do? Proverbs 3: 5, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; And He will strengthen me." Philippians 4: 13, "I can do all this through him who gives me strength." And isn't it in the hard times that we grow? Romans 8: 28, "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."
No, I am not overwhelmed, I am overflowing! God is good all the time! My cup runneth over!