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Out Of Control

As I sit here and wait to be called back to talk with Mike before his heart procedure I am reminded how out of control I am. I have been reminded a lot the past six weeks. It seemed I had no control over any of the burdens in my life. It started in March with Mike having blood clots in his lungs from our long flight to the Holy Land. He has never been sick and this was scary. Then they discovered he was in AFib. Another scary time going in and out of AFib. We had no control.


Then my visit with my daughter in Portland which we had no control. None of us had any control over the hurricane. Then Mom fell and had the brain bleed. Again, no control. I have never felt I have to be in control but as a mom I do like to fix things. And there are some things we cannot fix. I could not fix any of these things but I sure did want to.


I am so grateful for my faith because I know that I am not in control but God is. God's got this! What more could I ask for? I have said it before....I do not put Him in a box asking for certain things but just ask Him to be all over certain situations because His ways are always better. His ways are the best. And He loves my family more than I do.


I think it is healthy to be reminded that we are out of control. I don't know that I need to keep on being reminded, haha. When we know we are out of control we are more apt to turn to God. Isaiah 55: 8-9, "'For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,' declares the Lord."


God wants the best for my family and I. He knows the plans He has for us and they are good plans. Jeremiah 29: 11, "'For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Now I just have to trust Him! And I can keep saying out loud, "God's got this!"

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