August 30, 2012 I heard the words no one wants to hear and I would have to fight for my life. My doctor said it would be the hardest year of my life, if I could finish the treatment. It was horrible but it was a year filled with many blessings. I learned what it meant to thank God for the hard times. 1 Thessalonians 5:18, "give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus." I believe that having to fight for my life made me truly appreciate life, see more beauty, smelled more flowers, enjoyed the salt air and ocean breezes and I loved more deeply. I fell more in love with my family and I love God more than I can comprehend, because He is my Everything.
Being too tired to talk, I found comfort in Jesus which brought a deeper relationship with Him. His presence brought healing, renewal, and peace. I asked Him not to waste the cancer and I ran to Him, knowing He would bring good from this trial. I realized I was being refined - burning away my desires, sin and flesh so He could purify me into what He wanted me to be in Him. It was a very painful process, at times I didn't want to fight but that broke me down so He could mold me back together in His image. 2 Corinthians 4:8-9, "We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.” The pain is purposeful. Isaiah 43:2, "When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.”
My doctor said I was in remission but I claim Jesus healed me. That is all I ever say. 1 Peter 5:10, "And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.” I thank God for that hard time that made me grow in Him. 1 Peter 1:7, "These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.”
August 30 is also the date my cousin died of breast cancer and Mike's dad died of cancer. I thank God for their lives and know we will be reunited one day. Until then I will enjoy this beautiful life He has given me while sharing what He has done for me! I thank Him for these 12 years! All glory, honor and praise to Jesus!
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