I had never felt so worthless. My integrity had been questioned. I had let a few people tear me completely down. I cried for three weeks. I had to go somewhere I was not comfortable going but I knew it was the right thing to do. I told God I needed His protection. He protected me, my character and let me feel loved. Psalm 73: 26, "My flesh and my heart fail; But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." He answered each prayer, over and over.
God reminded me that I am His! Satan loved this worthlessness that I was feeling. I knew he was all over this situation and I had to believe that it was partly because I was starting a ministry. For a little bit I thought I had misunderstood my calling and would not continue this new ministry. I repeated many times a day, "I am who You say I am!" John 15:16, "You did not choose Me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should abide, so that whatever you ask the Father in My name, He may give it to you." I wanted to defend myself but sometimes it's best to let God defend you.
I had great comfort knowing God would fight my battle and take care of things when He knew I couldn't. Psalm 121: 1-2, "I will lift up my eyes to the hills—From whence comes my help? My help comes from the Lord, Who made heaven and earth." Are you feeling like you are less than? Ephesians 2: 10, "For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them." We are so loved by God! The God of all creation, the God of everlasting glory, the God Who Is and Was loves us! And He loves us BIG! That is the biggest blessing we could have!