I Am Under Attack
When I decided to go forward with God's plan for my ministry a mentor told me, "be ready for the enemy to attack." I knew this but I don't think you are ever ready. The last two weeks have been unbelievably difficult! I do not want to share it all but trust me that along with my mom moving, my daughter moving and Mike and I moving in two weeks time, it has been tough. When I thought I couldn't handle any more our family got devastating news that rocked us.
I had been weepy all week from exhaustion and the uncertainties of life which led to me getting sick. I know to listen to my body and it was screaming but there was too much that had to be done. When the final blow came I could not stop crying. I spent time alone, or with Mike, moving things while thinking and processing. While carrying a box through the door, I was thanking God for the hard times. 1 Thessalonians 5: 18, "give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus." I was asking Him to help me with my unbelief. Proverbs 3: 5-6, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight."
I heard, God say, "wait to see what I have coming for y'all!" (I knew He was southern!, just kidding, I think we hear in "our" language.) I was so overcome that the tears started and I hit the floor - no furniture. I cried out to God. Psalm 18: 6, "In my distress I called to the Lord; I cried to my God for help. From his temple he heard my voice; my cry came before him, into his ears." I sobbed for an hour releasing the burdens I was holding. "Be still and know that I am God." I stayed still and just rested in Him. Matthew 11: 28, "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." I felt much better after this release and I am remembering why I am under attack - the devil knows I am all in on this with God!