I was blindsided as the words came at me like daggers. What was happening? I tried to speak but there was a spin put on what I said and I knew there was no talking. Even my ministry was attacked. Thankfully, my faith kicked in, and I carried on a conversation with God. I put on the armor of God. Ephesians 6: 10, "Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes." I told Him I didn't understand and to give me the words or keep my mouth shut and to give me the right look on my face.
Whoever said, "sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me" was wrong. Words hurt. I was broken, my heart was shattered and I was beyond hurt by the things said. I felt worthless and could hardly hold my head up. "The tongue has no bones but is strong enough to break a heart. So be careful with your words."
Normally, I would wrestle with this for a while and finally go to God. but for the first time, I went straight to God and said, "this is so big, God, I thank You for the hard times cause I know I am going to grow!" Every day I thanked God, most of the time through tears. I thanked Him for not wasting anything and told Him I would trust Him to fight this battle. Ephesians 6: 16-17, "...take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God." I didn't know how but I knew God was going to bring good from this. I just had to trust Him. Proverbs 3: 5-6, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight."