A day after Mike and I got home from the Holy Land I planted myself in front of the computer to make a book of our travels for Mike. I worked on it for 72 hours trying to make a financial deadline to get unlimited pages! I also had a brain deadline because I could hardly remember what the pictures were of ...even with my notes!
In Jerusalem I had done a devotion at the Pools of Bethesda. I shared that it had been five years to the week of my six hour breast cancer surgery. As I was making the book I got to one of the highest and Holiest parts....remembering our Baptisms in the Jordan River where Jesus was baptized. I noticed the date was February 8!
February 8, 2013, I was in the hospital when my surgeon came in and said, "pathology reports never come back clean, Jill, and I want you to be prepared." When he left I sobbed! I had taken the most aggressive chemo they make and you are only allowed six in your life time. Most people do not finish. I finished although many times I wanted to quit.
I sobbed til I could sob no more. Then it was time to hand it over and I told God, "it is what it is. I have no control! I am going to trust you, God, because I know I am going to be ok no matter how things ended. You know my family has lost a lot this past year and I don't want them to lose me too. I trust you!" I learned that day how important it is to say, "I trust you, God!"
Three days later my surgeon called me at 10:00 pm telling me to put the phone on speaker. He said, "this is nothing but God's mercy. Your pathology report came back clean and this does not happen!
All of this came to me as I was making the page for the Jordan River and I was overwhelmed! One of my favorite lines is, "God gives us just what we need....and so much more!" He knew Feb 8, 2013, as I sobbed telling Him that I trust Him, that I was going to be here in five years. Even though my doctors did not think so! I picture Him smiling at me thinking, "daughter, you are not only going to be there in five years but five years from today you will be remembering your Baptism in the
Jordan River just like Jesus did! Yep, He always shows off! He gives us what we need and so much more!
