This has been an incredibly hard week! I share a lot but sometimes the stories are not mine to share. Let's just say this past week was a week of lots of big concerns. And before you could wrap your head around one you were getting more news about someone else. This happened six times within a few days!
Now I can quote few verses but I do know, Hebrews 13: 5, "I will never leave you or forsake you!" The other thing I say out loud several times a day is, I trust you, God! I do trust Him because I do know that He will always be here for me! He will not leave me! In fact, Matthew 28: 20, says, "...And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” He is and always will be with me.
This week I was also reminded of Philippians 4: 6, "Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." I do thank God for these hard times because I know all involved are growing in Him. I also know that God knows the best way to handle these issues. He also can bring such good from things we think are bad. We have to trust.
All of that and I still went to church with a heavy heart. And then it was as if my pastor had been in my heart all week. The sermon was titled, "Fear Factor!" And although she used some of the same verses I had used this week it was nice to hear it from someone else! Even the songs we sang were picked out for me! We sang Trust in You and I was blown away. Here are some of the words, "When You don't move the mountains, I'm needing You to move. When You don't part the waters, I wish I could walk through. When You don't give the answers, As I cry out to You - I will trust, I will trust, I will trust in You! Truth is, You know what tomorrow brings. There's not a day ahead You have not seen. So let all things be my life and breath. I want what You want Lord and nothing less!"
We also sang a favorite of mine, No Longer Slaves: "You unravel me, with a melody. You surround me with a song. Of deliverance, from my enemies Till all my fears are gone. I’m no longer a slave to fear. I am a child of God. I’m no longer a slave to fear. I am a child of God.
From my mothers womb You have chosen me. Love has called my name. I’ve been born again, into a family. Your blood flows through my veins."
One of my favorite things about my church is how you can feel the power of the Holy Spirit in the room. You can hear everyone praising and worshiping as they sing. So as I sang I felt the words in my heart. I felt the Holy Spirit. Then I got quiet and just listened at the hundreds of people praising God through song! I cried again but these were tears of joy! And tears of relief and release.
I do not know what tomorrow brings but that is nothing new. We never know what tomorrow brings but there is not a day ahead that God has not seen! For today, I am not going to be a slave to fear. I am a child of God and that means He will never leave me. And I will trust Him with my life and the lives of those I love! I want what He wants!