Jill Jarrell Newsome
Am I Really Trusting
Reading a devotional recently made me realize that as important as I think trusting God is, I may not REALLY be trusting Him. When I say, "I trust You" to Him I am really meaning, "God, I trust You to take care of this." All the while I am expecting the results, on my terms and my timeline. I am not totally surrendering the whole package! Ouch!
Am I really asking Jesus to guide and direct me when I lay out the whole plan? I am trying to say, and mean, "I trust You God with the whole thing! You know best!" I have to lay down my expectations! When I have my expectations fixed, I cannot see the truth of Jesus. When things don't line up my way, I want to reject it, thinking it is not right. I have to remember Proverbs 19:21, "Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails." God’s purpose is greater than any of my expectations. He also knows the future! Ephesians 3: 20, "Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us..."
In Luke 9:1-17 the 12 disciples witness Jesus perform miracles but they still doubt they could feed 5,000 people with two fish and five loaves of bread. Verses 13, “We have only five loaves of bread and two fish—unless we go and buy food for all this crowd.” As many times as I have witnessed God do the impossible, just in my life, I find myself doubting that He can do the impossible. God's goodness is right here with us, just like He was there with the disciples. Let's pray for bold faith, believing in the impossible because we know His ways are not our ways and His work is not limited to the world's standards!